I have a fantasy, I want to be abused a little

My boss who is around 25 years older to me has me feeling horny everyday. He treats me like a kid like a pat on my head for a good job done but all I want is him in my bed. Is that weird?

I'm secretly a published boudoir/fine art model...all because my boyfriend was too jealous to let me get boudoir photos done for him... I spitefully started this for fun

Every week, often two or three times a week, I'm being fucked by a postman. Or at the very least I'm sucking him off... Shh...dont tell my boyfriend

I regularly licked the edge of the toilet, which my ex spattered with urine while peeing standing up

My boss is an asshole, when he asks me to get his morning coffee, I pull my pubes and put it in his coffee before i put on the cover.

I had sex with the pizza delivery boy and he touched the next pizza he needed to deliver with his hand covered in my juice and his own cum

I try to masturbate but it's no use, I don't know if I'm frigid or just holy but I don't feel anything, maybe I'm doing it wrong?

I want someone who wants me not someone who wants a place holder until that get into their next relationship and not a egotistical narcissist who wants to use me I want the same love I give back I wish my friend gave me that but I just feel like a place holder in his like not anyone serious just someone to be in place of the female he is looking for we do everything that looks like a relationship and then he turns around and says to my face that we not together and we are friends and that’s it that’s all